here we go again

i am going through one of my low self esteem social phases again. *sigh* i have tons of acquaintances, but just a few close friends. the issue is that the closest person to me is Bob, and sometimes i need to vent About him, not to him. i can usually talk to my bren-a-sis, she is so good to me....but i think my renewed faith freaks her a little. i love her tho; i can't help it if i'm scared that she'll die and go to hell. now, i don't come out and say that to her, cuz really that's between her and God, but i worry. she is such a good person; she stayed with me when Bob had to stay at Parkview, she's been there for me for everything. Bob and I have been through a LOT in our 8 yrs, and she still loves me like a sis.
my other friends that i am getting to know are very much "in the world" and don't get me sometimes (yeah, like that never happens).

now, i am a generally happy person. its not always sunshine and rainbows tho. there are times i want to hit my husband with something blunt. i have actually done this once. with a MaG flashlight. (i ran after i did that one!) most of the time i control myself quite well.

oh, and don't get me started on my children. they are at the point o f summer vacation where nothing i do makes them happy. "there's nothing to do" is the stuff coming out of their mouths.
we are all ready for school to start!

*random jump*
i finally listened to a cd i got at the library. it's called "City on a Hill" and Sixpence None the Richer, Third Day and others are on it. so far i like it :-)

i really hate my internet. stupid contract!!! i can't watch video on it cuz it takes soooo long. and no, it's not dial up.



GAbby comes home friday. i am not ready forgive me Lord. i would elaborate, but i don't feel like it right now. long story.





If God is for us, who can be against us? Romans 8:31